Fuck it.
I'm weird now.
Hello all, I'm basically really brain dead for a while now, like I saw a movie in which some guy called this whole phase thing a melt down resulting from having worked too much for a while, and I'm hoping it's just that and nothing more.
But not so sure. If I had to fit into that above theory, I'd say maybe the hard work from during the exams plus the sister's wedding(yea, that was a nice event in my life, my sister's gotten married. That room now solely belongs to me. :P) And then right after that college with the looming projects and personal goals I'd set for myself, is the combined cause for the meltdown.
Then again, it might be cuz I don't really have much friends in Jaipur. Something screwed me up from Kota, and it had lingered at the start of my time in college, and so I stayed aloof enough, now, it's too late to be making friendships. And my old friends in Delhi, well, it's always great to meet them when I go there, but we aren't phone conversation sorts, even though we share our whole lives when we meet.
My best friend's out of the country now, hardly talk to him. My girlfriend is great, but what to do when she's out with friends right?
So, I went back to tricks I'd learnt in the place I'd had to survive alone in because there wasn't a person who was very relatable.
Walk around, listening to music. Especially Eminem - that guy knows how to express anger.
And write a blogpost of course.
Cuz I don't wanna go smoke or drink right?
I mean I do drink and all, but I just make it a point never to do that stuff out of need, only out of celebration and fun.
Maybe I'll try and come back here.
It's ironic how I come only to share the sad stuff. Forgive me there.
Best Wishes to you all.
I'm weird now.
Hello all, I'm basically really brain dead for a while now, like I saw a movie in which some guy called this whole phase thing a melt down resulting from having worked too much for a while, and I'm hoping it's just that and nothing more.
But not so sure. If I had to fit into that above theory, I'd say maybe the hard work from during the exams plus the sister's wedding(yea, that was a nice event in my life, my sister's gotten married. That room now solely belongs to me. :P) And then right after that college with the looming projects and personal goals I'd set for myself, is the combined cause for the meltdown.
Then again, it might be cuz I don't really have much friends in Jaipur. Something screwed me up from Kota, and it had lingered at the start of my time in college, and so I stayed aloof enough, now, it's too late to be making friendships. And my old friends in Delhi, well, it's always great to meet them when I go there, but we aren't phone conversation sorts, even though we share our whole lives when we meet.
My best friend's out of the country now, hardly talk to him. My girlfriend is great, but what to do when she's out with friends right?
So, I went back to tricks I'd learnt in the place I'd had to survive alone in because there wasn't a person who was very relatable.
Walk around, listening to music. Especially Eminem - that guy knows how to express anger.
And write a blogpost of course.
Cuz I don't wanna go smoke or drink right?
I mean I do drink and all, but I just make it a point never to do that stuff out of need, only out of celebration and fun.
Maybe I'll try and come back here.
It's ironic how I come only to share the sad stuff. Forgive me there.
Best Wishes to you all.
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